just pete

April 19, 2005

benedict xvi

Filed under: bad stuff happens for good reasons, prosapologian — justpete @ 11:44 am

I’m home sick again, even though I went into work to see how it went. After nearly passing out a few times, I asked my brother in Christ, Chris to give me a drive home. On the way home, we heard on the radio that white smoke was eminating from the Vatican – the traditional announcement that a new pope had been elected. I tuned on the TV when I got home to find out the details.

I’ve often said, “You know… all it would take to open up real discussions between Protestants and Catholics that could result in some form of common ground, is a liberal Pope to come along and say, ‘You know what? Turns out that I’m not infallible after all.‘” Once we got that presupposition out of the way, there could be genuine discussion with a potential hope in sight.

Well, we can pretty much guarentee that’s not going to happen during this potificate. I never would have guessed they’d elect Ratzinger. Cardinal Ratzinger is one of the most conservative members of the upper eschalon of the Roman Catholic Church, having been the leader of the “Congregation for the Doctrine of the Faith.” That’s the new name of that organization, anyway. It’s original name was simply ‘The Inquisition.’ I can only assume that the choice of Joseph Ratzinger is meant to heal the highly un-public (it’s not private, by any stretch) schism that threatens the RC church these days. Traditionalists and liberals have been firing shots at each other fast and furious since Vatican II, and John Paul II did little to heal the wounds between them, being one of the most liberal pontiff in the history of that seat.

Unfortunately, I’m too ill to sit here and discuss this issue at length. Watch carefully, folks. There is no question in my mind that Pope Benedict XVI will make for an interesting pontificate. I suppose the one upside is that, if he is true to his actions during his cardinalship, it should become easier to demonstrate the gaps between Protestant and Catholic theology.

Watching the news though… it amazes me how ignorant even Catholics are of thier own history and tradition. Hopefully Benedict XVI will correct that, allowing opportunities for discussion.

April 16, 2005

blech, but still…

Filed under: bad stuff happens for good reasons, prayer request — justpete @ 7:53 am

Marsha’s been sick all week, so I’ve had to pick up the slack around the house. And considering how much my wife does to keep this household up and running smoothly, that’s a fair amount of slack! Alyssa’s been a great help, and has been taking good care of our poor, sick mommy.

Unfortunately, Alyssa and I both picked up Marsha’s cold. Thankfully, Alyssa didn’t get hit very hard with it, and other than some sniffles, she’s fine. She’s got a piano recital today, so if you have a few spare minutes, say a prayer for my daughter that she might do well, but more importantly, that she might enjoy herself and take a little healthy pride in her accomplishment.

I’m not big on birthdays, especially my own, but I’d still rather not be sick today. It’s such a gorgeous spring day outside, and we’re having company over this afternoon. Plus there’s the recital, and I’m also another full year older today. It was also one year ago today that I made this post, on the evening that Tieren took a courageous step, and she, Katelynn & Shelby all came over to visit me. It will probably remain the best birthday ever in my memory, since my heart which had been split in two so many years ago, was put back together again.

I ended that post with the following words…

God works things in such cool ways! I’m so anxious to see what He’s doing here.

I had no idea that He would do what He did. I had no idea that all three of them would establish meaningful relationships with Jesus Christ. I had no idea that I would stand in the waters of baptism with them as they professed that faith publically. Praise Him. Praise His name forever. Wait on Him in anxious expectation – because He’s got some amazing things in store.

March 4, 2005

confessions

Filed under: bad stuff happens for good reasons, prayer request — justpete @ 10:55 am

Time for a little bit of transparency. I’ve been struggling pretty hard over the past year or more with various issues such as depression, anxiety, and general stress. It’s been bad sometimes. Really bad. There have been personal issues, professional issues, relationship issues, and so much more. It’s been a steady downward spiral which has manifested itself in various negative and self-destructive ways.

Time to suck it up! I’ve suffered from clinical depression most of my life, and did recieve treatment at one point, but abandoned it like a typical, foolish “I can handle it!” macho-mongoloid. So, I’m once again being treated, and while I’m not walking around on a blissful cloud of sedative-induced surrealism, I am in considerably more control of my emotional reactions. At my last appointment, my doctor asked me if I was feeling a little bit more like myself, and I had to honestly tell her, “I don’t remember what ‘myself’ feels like.” During ‘Challenge,’ an annual youth event at my church, I was having a great time and one of my more mature sisters in Christ asked me, “You just enjoy life, don’t you Pete?”

It threw me off-guard, and I said “Right now, yes.” It reminded me of the fact that I’m actually pretty good at putting on a facade for people. I’m more adept at it than I credit myself with. When I think everyone can read me like an open book, they’re still giggling at the funny lookin’ book-cover. I spend so much of my time afraid, or dispairing, or regretting… and it’s exhausting. I get tired easily, which is part of the reason I’m generally in bed by 9pm every night. One of the self-destructive side effects of these problems is that I make less time to be with the Lord. It’s generally because for two very stupid and self-contradictory reasons. Firstly, I’m too tired, and I feel like I don’t have the time. What?! How much effort does it take to pray? How much effort does it take to read? Yeah, Pete… really exhausting. Nice try. Secondly, I’m less worthy when I’m depressed. I’m less God-honouring. I’m less holy. Nevermind the fact that our God is a God of grace, and I’m ALWAYS unworthy, and ALWAYS not as honouring as I should be, and I’m MOST DEFINITELY not holy. See? Stupid reasons.

But I’m trying. I’m getting help. I’m talking with people. I’m trying to communicate better with those I love, and I’m about to start some sessions with a brother in Christ. The only reason I’m posting any of this here is because I HAVE to maintain a level of transparency, or I’ll use my mask to fool people, and that’s not what I want to do. If I’m going to wear a mask from time to time, I want people to at least see it, and recognize it for what it is. Perhaps even confront me on it, when it’s getting in the way of something important.

If it occurs to you, make quick mention of me in your prayers. I suspect the road ahead of me is far longer and rockier than I would like.

February 16, 2005

rob schläpfer apologizes

Filed under: bad stuff happens for good reasons — justpete @ 9:58 am

I have to admit, it took some guts to post this apology. There’s going to have to be some time for healing, but at least this is a move in the right direction…

It has been reported around the Web that in recent weeks/months I have expressed anger with some of the people I have encountered in our work, “taking them to task” in a manner that is utterly inconsistent with the values I hold dear — values that have been expressed throughout our six years on line.

It is true. I have done so. And I would like to formally apologize. I’ve been wrong. I would ask all injured parties to forgive me — for Jesus’ sake, and for the glory of the gospel.

Read the complete text here…

February 7, 2005

into the great wide open

Please keep me in prayer this week. I leave for Salt Lake City this afternoon, and while I wish it were a mission trip, it’s just a business trip. I’m going to set up a server in my company’s base of operations, but as many of you know, I love sharing the gospel of grace with LDS folks and have always enjoyed my discussions with them. There are three specific things I’d like you to pray for:

  1. Safe travel, that I might arrive at my destination and return home on Friday safely.
  2. Peace & comfort in the Spirit, and in the confidence that God is in charge. I hate travelling more than just about anything, and even more so when it’s a business trip. I don’t handle stress overly well, so pray that I would be constantly reminded that God’s in control.
  3. For discernment and for opportunities. This is officially a business trip, not a mission trip – but we as Christians know that every waking moment is part of a mission. Pray that many opportunities for discussion might present themselves, and pray that I might show discernment throughout.

I hope to pop in on Jerald and Sandra Tanner’s bookstore while I’m there, and perhaps go on the visitor’s tour of the Salt Lake temple. I’ll be home on Friday, and hope to have some interesting stories to tell. Thank you to all those who have remembered me in prayer, and God bless.

November 18, 2004

empowered again

Filed under: bad stuff happens for good reasons — justpete @ 4:09 pm

Well, my family and I survived the Great Nova Scotian Blackout of ?04. If you hadn?t heard, we got an early snowstorm on Saturday. About halfway into it, however, the temperature rose. That resulted in wet, sloppy snow that built up on power lines, and transmission towers, collapsing many of them.

For me, it was a shock. I woke up Sunday morning, and stepped into my kitchen. My coffee had brewed, and I had just flicked on the light switch when everything went dead. At first, I thought I?d blown a fuse or something. I had no phone, or power, so I grabbed my cell phone and started calling my Sunday-school students to let them know class was cancelled. As it turned out, church was cancelled! Alyssa was at her grandparent?s for the night, so Marsha and I braved a long cold Sunday alone. Monday morning, I?d had enough, so I went out and started shoveling my way out.

?They can take our power, but they canna take… OUR FREEDOM!? I cried, and my car fought it?s way out of the driveway like a warrior-poet. There was no power anywhere. Anywhere, that is, except Windsor. That?s where my parents live, and where Alyssa spent the night (thanks be to God). We decided it was time to pay my parents a little visit? and perhaps shower? and eat hot food? and spend the night. There?s still a number of people who don?t have power today, and haven?t had it since Saturday night, so please be in prayer for the folks up here. Lots of elderly, and families with young children, and folks who have electric ventilators and so forth up here who are suffering plenty. So far there have been no major injuries or fatalities reported, and pray that the Lord might permit it to remain that way.

Here’s a few headlines of the events for posterity…

November 8, 2004

sick again

Filed under: bad stuff happens for good reasons — justpete @ 5:40 pm

I’ve got another cold. Tieren mentioned in passing that I’ve been sick (on and off) for like a month now. I’ve got to admit, looking back, it seems I’ve felt bad more often than I’ve felt good.

I think moving into our new office at work is somehow contributing to my weak immune system. You know, fresh paint, old asbestos dust and so forth. :-(

November 4, 2004

discerning drama

Filed under: bad stuff happens for good reasons — justpete @ 12:23 pm

Those close to me will tell you how much I simply adore drama. That is sarcasm, by the way. I loath drama, and I detest those individuals who seem to either thrive on it, or manufacture it. That’s the primary reason why I’ve avoided the whole “new perspectivism” debate, because it seems to be heavily painted with drama. The acerbic attitude of many of those in support of the governmental view of justification towards those who deny it seems to color the entire issue with assorted hues of technicolor rage.

I want to be clear that I don’t mean to throw everyone involved in the debate in that same barrel of bad apples. As usual, it’s always the most vocal folks who seem to have the most words (and usually the least amount to actually say). This particular issue, however, has seriously divided former friends and brothers like few other issues in recent history. I find it interesting (and mildly ironic) that the debate between “forensic justificationists” (my new word, like it?) versus “governmental justificationists” reminds me vividly of the recent (and ongoing) debate between Dave Hunt and his various Calvinistic detractors. Dave often accused Calvinists of being “elitists,” especially when Calvinists pointed out that Mr. Hunt didn”t have the background/education to address the issue respectfully. Now, in that case, I believe the Calvinists had a leg to stand on – I can point you to much better attacks on Calvinism than Dave Hunt’s works. He really, genuinely doesn’t ‘get’ Calvinism. In the “new perspectivism” (a.k.a. “Reformed Catholicism,” “governmental justification”) debate, proponent accuse the detractors of not understanding the fullness of the scholarship underlying the discussion. They accuse those who don’t find merit in the arguments of being “divisive,” “unwilling to listen” or just plain unintelligent or unscholarly.

A couple of friends of mine (I still reckon them friends, even though we haven’t spoken for some time, primarily because of the different circles we travel in) have a blog that used to be subtitled “Less Calvin, More Luther” and is now subtitled, “Calvin Must Decrease, Luther Must Increase.” I find that title very appropriate given the current drama surrounding the debate on the issue in question, especially when you consider the fact that Luther, at the Marburg Colloquy in 1529, lost his cool with Zwingli and company, refusing to discuss the matter of the real presence of Christ in the Lord’s Supper rationally and instead scrawled “hoc est corpus meum” (“this is my body”) on his table. If that’s the attitude that Luther represents, then rest assured, he is indeed increasing. [NOTE: This is obviously not the intention to the blog's authors, and I'm totally applying my own personal interpretation to that phrase.]

What I find particularly fascinating in this situation is the way folks react when they can’t convince someone from the other side that they’re wrong. First, the accusations of ignorance, followed soon after by name calling, then the silent-treatment, then some more outbursts, and then taking their ball and going home. The ocean of emotionalism that these two battling ships seem to be sailing on is amazingly turbulent. I remember when Tim Enloe, after multiple largely unsuccessful volleys, eventually shut down his web site and his blog, thusly kicking the dust from his feet. He, of course, turned around and started a new one up again, as well as a second where he could rally his like-minded troops.

Now we see the same sort of thing coming from Rob Schlä°¦er (antithesis.com / discerningreader.com / christiancounterculture.com / etc), who has been extremely upset with one individual in particular who he used to unashamedly support, although he’s left a few of his old standbys by the wayside. Mr. Schlapfer’s book sales web site (discerningreader.com) offers some comments on a web page that discusses how they review books (now located here). It’s in the section titled “Excellent – A “must-read!” and states the following: “Some of the authors whom you will consistantly find here are: Jay Adams, Jerry Bridges, D. A. Carson, Marva Dawn, Os Guinness, Michael Horton, John MacArthur, John Piper, R. C. Sproul, Gene Edward Veith, and James White.” Now, the emphasis on “consistently” is mine, because what you’ll find is that it simply isn’t true. In fact, four of the authors who used to have their own page on discerningreader.com have been removed. You will find that the links to Os Guinness, John MacArthur, Gene Edward Veith and James White no longer function. These authors, 36% of the “must-reads” are consistently not found there. Why not? What’s changed?

Let’s take, for example, Dr. James White’s book The God Who Justifies. A couple years ago, the Discerning Reader offered the following short/sweet review: “A new standard…put this to the top of your reading list!” Later, this book was added to Rob Schlapfer’s “Advanced/Essential Training” list of suggested books. Later still, the little happy note disappeared, and there was no comments at all. Then, as the New Perspectivism debate started heating up, the following review of The God Who Justifies was offered by The Discerning Reader:

“A well-argued theological defense of the Reformed understanding of justification by faith – as distinct from Roman Catholic and Lutheran understandings. James White has done an excellent job bringing together some of the best statements from Reformed theologians of the last 450 years and integrating them with his own apologetic insights as one who regularly debates Roman Catholics, Mormons and others. The result is a definitive restatement of the central doctrine of Reformed Theology. Essential reading for beginning and intermediate students of the Bible. Advanced students will want to ponder the more exegetical “less theological” arguments from contemporary New Testament scholars such as Tom Wright, Paul Barnett, Don Garlington and others. In fact, the real weakness of the book is that it fails to address the issues that are truly on the forefront of today’s theological discussions. One would hope that a future revision of The God Who Justifies will do so, through careful exegesis of the texts, as opposed to merely thoughtful citations from the confessions and theologians of the Reformed past. That would truly serve us in coming to a final conclusion as to what Paul (especially) is saying on the matter.”
- The Discerning Reader

An exchange of accusations then took place. Dr. White questioned this change to his book entry on discerningreader.com, and Rob Schlä°¦er responded that it had been that way for some time. Dr. White’s comments on the review can be found on his blog (the 10/16/04 entry) and Rob Schlä°¦er’s responce to this entry is located on his own blog. Two things I find interesting about Mr. Schlapfer’s comments: Firstly, Rob seems to indicate that the fact that James took offence to being referred to as “an ass” is the result of backwards, fundamentalist thinking. Rob must be so forward thinking to be well beyond my scope of understanding too, because I know I, and most of the Christians I know and fellowship with, would take offence at such a comment. Secondly, in referring to the expanded review of The God Who Justifies, Rob comments, “This is the only note we have EVER published about the book. Prior to Winter 2003, we simply listed the book as one of our ESSENTIALS.” That, as I’ve demonstrated, is false. The origional review, placed in the exact same physical postion on the web page read, “A new standard…put this to the top of your reading list!” You can check the page on the Internet Archive and confirm that fact yourself. Maybe he just forgot.

Rob also apparently feels that the Discerning Reader is suffering, “due to the abuse we have suffered from staunch Reformers like Dr. White, who seem determined to drive us out of business.” Perhaps, the reason the Discerning Reader is suffering has little to do with outside influences, and has more to do with internal issues. Perhaps those very same internal issues have manifested themselves as Rob seems to have chosen the same path as those before him: He’s closed down his primary website, antithesis.com, with the short comment, “antithesis is shut down – perhaps for good. I’ve just lost hope.”

Why is this issue, most especially, generating this degree of drama? Comments welcome.

July 21, 2004

used pottery – half off

Filed under: bad stuff happens for good reasons — justpete @ 12:51 pm

Those who know me, know that I have self-esteem issues. I’m not self-deluded; I know why I’m a joker, why I’m a private person, why I enjoy spending time alone. It’s not like I’ve convinced myself that I’m “just a loner” or something. I’m also the worst kind of hypocrite: A Christian who teaches others about Christianity, while continuing to rebel against the God who redeemed him. Somebody said something to me today, however, that reminded me that God is indeed the potter, and we are the clay.

They said that they enjoy our theological discussions because it’s one of the only times I’m comfortable and confident. Isn’t that odd? That the proverbial class clown, overcompensating for obvious sense of inferiority, should seem comfortable and confident when speaking of the absolute, immutable, omnipotent, all-holy God. The God who should have condemned him. The God who didn’t. The God who he constantly asks, “Why me?”

In looking back on my life, and all the nasty things that have happened (as well as all the good things), I see more clearly why each was useful for a bigger purpose. Isaiah cries out, “Yet, O LORD, you are our Father. We are the clay, you are the potter; we are all the work of your hand.” Yet, like an old clay vessel that has seen a lifetime of use, we are chipped, marred and worn. We look at the damage done over the years and think, “What a worthless piece of crockery. It may have been nice once upon a time, but look at it now.” Yet, someone fills it with water one more time to water a plant, and we watch as it spills and leaks from the various cracks and holes, and we snicker to ourselves, saying, “Look at the mess it’s making!”

But see how much more earth was watered by the broken clay pot. Each of those spills may have fed a hidden seed. And to hear someone express the fact that they enjoy talking to me about God reminds me that He can use anything… good stuff… bad stuff… even a crackpot like me. (Sorry – couldn’t resist.)

May 19, 2004

people are strange when you’re a stranger

Filed under: bad stuff happens for good reasons — justpete @ 1:06 pm

There’s very few things that irritate me more than complete strangers being in my home when I’m not there. One of the unfortunate side effects of us buying a house is that our current landlord feels this need to attract new tenants! And these tenants expect to actually SEE the house before signing a lease! What madness is this?!

And you might know – my lawnmower decided to rebel against my lawn-mowing tyranny this weekend, so of course the lawn’s looking plenty raggedy. Then, last night, the vacuum cleaner decided to go on strike! It’s a mutiny!!

So my house wasn’t nearly as tidy as I would have liked it to be. Oh well. Great night last night though. I was supposed to be taking Katelynn to Shelby’s concert at the school, only to be met at the door by their mom, explaining that Shelby wasn’t going to be in the show. So, we went and got ice cream instead! Then we went back to her place and watched Matrix: Revolutions until her mom came home. Too bad Shelby was out :-/

Next Page »

Blog at WordPress.com.